Saturday, May 28, 2022

 Song of the Mallee


Introduction. 

 

As the sunrise upon the morning,

So sunrise on the mallee dawning,

Upon The Mallee brightly shining,

We hear crow announce its calling,

Calling, calling, rousting crrrarking!

Carrakkkk, carrrarking treetop calling,

The crow to its family warning.

Hear the butcher bird chortle,

Hear the honeyeater sparkle,

The magpie and the wagtail squabble,

Galahs and the cockatoos scraying

The kangaroo with joey in the stubble.

Wombat and possum trumble.

We hear the wanton, woeful die ,

Of the bush stone curlew cry.

So we begin our story telling,

Our story of our ancestors telling

That came from afar seas a-sailing,

That came afar with their families sailing,

That came many to a land so willing,

A land willing tho’ crops a failing,

Walked to the lower Flinders Rangers,

With their ploughs and animals trailing

To farm there that treacherous climate,

The rain follows the plough

They believed.

But it didn’t.

And their farms died,

And their animals died,

And their dreams died,

And their children died there.

So were the Sorbs again driven,

Driven from their German valleys homeland,

Driven by the Kaiser’s armies attacking.

The Silesian weavers and their offspring,

Came with strength and courage unfailing.

That came the Selisians and the Posens,

That came the Wends and the Sorbians

I will tell you of their stories,

Of their travail and trying stories.

I can tell you of their stories,

Because I have been watching,

I am the watcher always watching,

From the rim of a far horizon.

Came with them their families and friends,

Came with them their trades and skills,

The farriers, saddlers and horsemen skilled,

The farmers, bakers and carpenters too,

Came the music came the songs,

Came the singing from far along.

That came from afar seas a sailing,

Came the Irish,

Came the Italians,

Came the Cornish to mine hills and valleys.

All of them come and bring their cultures,

All of them come and bring their families,

Come and come so many singing,

All of them come and bring their cooking,

Food exotic and tastes of heaven,

Work as hard as any draughthorse,

Work as long as work was willing.

Work always there for the tilling.

Women bearing so many children,

Bearing also many still-born children,

Graveyards with young women filling

With both mother and in-birth child a dying.

The ground awash with tears a falling.

Let me tell you of their story,

It will be telling of the last story,

This epic will be their last story,

This poem will be the last of that era,

This time has gone and so far ended,

This time has so far gone and passed

As have all those players passed

As have all their done deeds passed,

As have their guilt and innocence passed,

Their work and building and lived lives passed,

All the farmers, their wives and children,

Gone, gone to the history past,

Gone like yesterday’s sunset past,

Gone like youth’s wild laughter past,

Like the blown leaves of Autumn falled…

Like empty husks of Summer seeds fallen,

The summer crops pouring their seeds

Onto the Earth and onto the stone,

A heart of stone the world has become,

A new world rising of stone and cinder,

Where hope is but a one minute wonder

Where love is but a speculative opportunity.

This is why we will not survive,

This is why we will not survive,

This is why we will not survive.

Through war and plague we did thrive,

Disease and disaster we did survive,

Small tribes wandering water to water

We did survive,

We did thrive,

Hunting ground to hunting ground wander,

We did survive and thrive there under.

Shelter to shelter, hut to stone,

We did wander..we did thrive.

We did live..we did survive..

Alive for one primary desire,

Desire for one other’s life..

Desire for that loved one special..

Special loved for that one desire..

A certain one within the tribal clan,

A special one within the tribal group.

Within the shelter of the tribal clan.

Protected by the shelter of the tribe,

The one who shared our likes and dreams,

The liking for particular fruits and seeds,

The liking for a singular woven cloth,

A place of refuge,

A place of resting over others.

In times more conducive grow,

Within the heart grow to love.

Within the tribe grow to love,

But can such a thing be allowed to grow,

If not in the interest of the culture,

If not in the interest of the tribe.

What the custom where the culture,

If not of the interest for the tribe,

If not of the interest for the lovers.

And of the class and of the creed,

Can love form outside of these?

Outside of station in the culture,

Outside of position in the status.

Yet regardless if ever consummated,

Regardless of such station born,

Still will embryonic desire grow,

Still will the beginnings always show

Of that need for imagination show

Of those hidden senses and know

That the heart will hold the fruit

And the senses in conspiracy stored,

For those who are loved and adored.

These are the people my story tells,

Unknown people my story tells,

Neither brave nor heroes be,

Neither great lover like in history

There are no heroes in my story,

No heroes and no Gods in this story.

No Gods to steer or to control,

So let this story epic unfold,

This story that so needs be told,

I will make this story unfold,

For I am one of those families old,

That lived and thrived in this country,

Family that lived and died in this country.

That gave all they had to this country,

I AM the story of this country.

 

(Nb. This is a "work in progress" of a larger body of work. There may be changes or corrections as it progresses.)

Tuesday, May 10, 2022

Concealed.


In the writing of a recent story, I stumbled upon the realisation of this “place of beauty”, not quite of the heart or the soul…a place neither of love or soul, but rather of the “felt emotion” of a connection between a man and a woman of such power and intensity of want it becomes a hunger supreme for both a ”spiritually joined “desire and a sexual desire…the character in the story says: “…it was at that moment we touched…not physically, you understand, Stephan..nor of the heart or soul as they say…but another place, another part..a part of ourselves that has no name…but beauty…an un-named beauty that is so pure between a man and a woman…” ….For I believe these are the “gates” that open to this beauty…a pure beauty “beyond good and evil”…The ancient Greeks knew of this place and sensation..it is why the mythical Ulysses had himself tied to the mast and his crew’s ears blocked with wax so they could not hear the ”songs of the Sirens” as they sailed past the Isle, for they knew such a lure to that beauty would drive men mad…they named it ; “Agape”….and I am of the opinion that the mystery of this place of beauty that could be neither located in the soul or heart drove the ancient scholars to try to intellectualise it to prove their legitimacy of learned theory…and so was born “God”…the universal answer to all mysteries..

 

Somewhere..

Between the soul and the Divine,

Between that love you seek and the love you find,

Is a place of absolute beauty,

Is a place concealed and undefined.

You may not physically touch this place,

Like you may not touch the divine..

Only worship the possibility,

When there is no possibility..; only desire.

You cannot intellectualise this place,

Like you cannot intellectualise grace.

And like grace..once you think you have it,

You’ve lost it.

It is an avalanche of emotion..an ecstasy so nice,

It is a want of devotion, comes at a price.

You can never find this on the cheap rack,

You can never keep this with a half-filled cup.

And you ask ; do I desire thee?

What can I say to you..does the eagle the sky?

And you wonder; will I touch thee?

I say yes..yes, there, I will touch thy..

In that place with no name, no shame..

In that place where unfeigned lovers go,

Between love and the soul, between the soul and the divine,

Not of your body..but that subtle beauty in you..

Not of this world, but where pure delight is held.

not your body..but that subtle beauty within you...

not your body..but that subtle beauty concealed within you...

Where there is no name, no shame..

Only the Concealed.

That instant when one "touches" the secreted beauty in another person,

So a thrill overwhelming...a desire fulfilled..

So ecstatic I weep with the pleasure...

The pure…

I touch tender thou mons Venus pubis, with the touch of a lover's breath. Would I be guilty of hubris if such thoughts were made public...but no...it's a thought too private for that...It's MY thought...for me and thee..Only me...and thee. But guilt is the other thing...knowing “society” expects us to not have these erotic feelings, So do we suppress them...deep and long.....far too long..far too deep...So we hide such feelings inside.. keep them safe from corruption...feelings too pure of thought...too innocent for slander or destruction..

Now..

I am stealing you for my own selfish wants....

Rapere : To steal….rapio : I steal you away..

Though you may not feel it...I "touch" you now...

In my thoughts..I am imagining you and touching you...

Not only your body..but that subtle beauty within you...

I often wake in the morning hours with a "Glory"...unable to satisfy, bursting within, a pulsating thrust of force unsympathetic..unabating , I touch and feel its satin-skin undulations, it is of you I am thinking..I place a pillow over myself to imagine I have hold of your woman's hips, you lay on top of me and we are…...But no..I just lay there...not moving but I imagine us fucking..I re-create that moment and feeling, When I am so hard..I can feel it entering and touching the confines of your vagina...I re-create that moment ...That sensitive feeling..To enter and lay a surge of semen to your woman’s yielding.

The sexual pleasure overwhelming…

Somewhere between love and the soul,

Somewhere between man and the divine,

Somewhere, once, in the passage of time…

When it couldn’t be named, that beauty unknown,

And in their intellect, in their “vast” renown,

Those wily philosophers and theology drones,

In a fear of erotic sexuality..called it sacred,

Named it; “God”…

Then owned it,

Then placed His sterile kingdom at the edge of forever,

So was born a God impotent..placed in His heaven above,

So was born religion to explain the unknown,

So was born “duty” to replace the fickleness of love..

But you and I only, know of that place of beauty…..

We have ventured to such a place...behind the face of love.

 

     She hath such eyes. She hath such eyes that I do despise, Given my soul they see into and compromise, Because how can I ever ...